by Erniesam » 19 Oct 2013
Hi Siku,
exellent observation. Indeed, Diane is first on the left and than on the right of the shot. So, she imagined herself to be Camilla (and Diane wanted indeed in real life to be Camilla). She sees herself as Camilla and is relieved that she's come back. But...we haven't seen her before, have we? Yes we did, in the form of Rita. But Rita does not exist in Diane's daydream / fantasy, only in her dream, where Diane can unlock the deepest of her fantasy. She CAN however picture Camilla in her fantasy, because she is closer to reality than Rita is.
So, Camilla is indeed Diane in her fantasy, or rather, Diane sees herself as one with Camilla, because she wants / wanted that lifestyle and to be an actress. She is relieved to see Camilla, because that means she can continue her fantasy and repress her trauma. Diane is deeply disturbed when she realizes that Camilla is a figment of her imagination or rather, that she cannot sustain the image of Camilla for long. In short this can mean two things:
1. Diane is disturbed by the fact that she realizes she has hallucinations.
2. She is disturbed by the fact, that she cannot sustain the image for long, that is cannot uphold her fantasy.
I intend to go with the latter for several reasons. But to be brief, I guess the main reason would be that Diane would be aware of her hallucinations and her depression, because she has been this way for over three weeks. The fact that she is in an ever deepening depression, would suggest that it grows harder for Diane to uphold her fantasy. It doesn't come that easy anymore and that's why she's disturbed.
I guess we're on the same page on this one, Siku. Also your latest reply on this thread I agree with. The legend of the Crying Lady of Los Angeles AND the lyrics of the song "Crying" from Roy Orbison clearly have references to Diane's situation. As has the painting of Beatrice Censi. But that will also be discussed on other threads, I assume?